It's Been A Long Time
May 6, 2011: It's been a long time since I last journaled. I guess it just seemed like too much effort. However, I think it is long overdue.
I am still struggling as much, if not more, than I was a few months ago. So much has gone on. Life..... And, I have been sick for a while. I just can't seem to get over this upper respiratory thing. Doctor after doctor. Antibiotic after antibiotic. So very tired of it.
Little Bit Melisa's "would be" birthday was in April. Oh, how I miss her! Her angelversary is also coming up. And then, comes Scott's. I don't notice that it gets any less painful.
On the other hand, Charlotte, another DS mom, visited me, over Easter weekend, all the way from New Zealand. It was such a treat to finally meet her after chatting for nearly 3 years. And, we were able to meet with a few other moms from DS, as well.
Well, there is a lot I need to write about. But, not today. At least this is a start.....
I am still struggling as much, if not more, than I was a few months ago. So much has gone on. Life..... And, I have been sick for a while. I just can't seem to get over this upper respiratory thing. Doctor after doctor. Antibiotic after antibiotic. So very tired of it.
Little Bit Melisa's "would be" birthday was in April. Oh, how I miss her! Her angelversary is also coming up. And then, comes Scott's. I don't notice that it gets any less painful.
On the other hand, Charlotte, another DS mom, visited me, over Easter weekend, all the way from New Zealand. It was such a treat to finally meet her after chatting for nearly 3 years. And, we were able to meet with a few other moms from DS, as well.
Well, there is a lot I need to write about. But, not today. At least this is a start.....
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Ginger, it is a constant struggle with me too. And lately, seems to be getting the better of me. But all we can do is keep trying... So glad you were able to meet up with Charlotte. Nothing better than an in person hug! Even though we keep up on FB...I\'m glad to see you journaling here....may it help with some healing. Hugs, Kim
Hi Ginger, so good to hear from you. How exciting to get to meet Charlotte and other moms from here too! I always love the retreats because seeing someone face to face after sharing such intimate details of our life is just so wonderful! Sorry to hear you have been sick and hope that you will soon find the right doctor to get the right meds to finally get over it. I hate being sick! Thanks again for checking in and letting us know what\'s been going on. Please write again when you can. Until then know that you are missed and you are loved. Hugging you tight, Teri.
It would be nice to hear more about your East week end visit...It is nice to hear from you, so sorry you have been not well.. take care and write again soon..((hugs)) Nora
Ginger, its good to hear from you but the beauty of DS is you only do what you can do. So cool that you got to meet some other moms.
I do hope you feel better.
Love to you and Scott, Linda I wish you peace.
OH Ginger, Its so nice to hear from you. I have missed you..I have been down also..The weather has alot to do with how I feel too..It is hard enough missing our boys, never mind this lousy weather...I am like the weather, I am always blaming the weather....I noticed the longer i\'m without Ryan, the more I long for him.. Its so hard to explain, but I know you know what i\'m saying..The pain opens up in every stage we are at.. Its not that it gets easier, it is hard in different ways.. I will be with you through these hard times as it gets closer to scotts angel date.. I also think everything changed as we entered into our stage of life, on top of it all..Everything is like a loss, it takes sooo much time to grieve each of our losses as time goes on.. Enjoy your Granddaughter, I hope having her helps you...She is precious, love her and hug her all you can....Love to you my friend, Kelly
So good to hear from you...yes, a good start...and I would love to hear more...love and hugs...Karen
Great hearing from you and how wonderful to meet with other DS moms. I hope you have more opportunities to visit one another and that soon you will be able to journal more. Sending you love and big hugs. Robin
Hugs to you, Ginger. So lovely that you got to meet Charlotte and some others. Most do not understand our need to be amongst \"ourselves\" i.e. those who understand us. Hugs. Belinda
Thinking of you and hopeful that you will be feeling better. Being sick makes our grief journeys so much harder as the vulnerability is heightened. There is nothing like meeting friends in person so I\'m hopeful to hear more about it when you are able. Yes, this is a wonderful start, Ginger, and just do what feels right for you. You have been missed and thought about. With love, Joanie