It's been a long time
Ive been very busy with my college classes. As an overachiever, Ive managed to maintain a 4.0. Well this semester I am burnt out. Loss of concentration and motivation. I'm having alot of problems with my husband. He's been out of work most of the year due to mental breakdown. I'm afraid after he gets his help I'm going to crash. Financial stress along with the stress of being unable to conceive is really weighing on me. Theres no reason to even try bc of our financial situation and stress. I am trying to pick up a new hobby...glass painting. Taking care of all my pets and doing creative things are very relaxing. As the holidays approach, many bad memories have been flooding my mind. this just isnt the best time of year. well its been goid to write out how i feel.
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I am sorry about your situation. Does getting in touch with God help? Like maybe going to one of the activities at church? and socializing with people there? I think I am the total contrary to you, I have bipolar disorder and all my life I have failed, not really, but what comes to College, the Army, Job Corps, Marriage, even my ex-husband took my children away from me, but it was not a justified reason (the courts were very unjust and judged me based on my mental illness not any facts, and I am glad I got divorced. I never finished all those I mentioned above, but God has always been there for me and I feel I have left all my failures behind, now much older and in my 40\'s I visit the sick, pray, go to mass and other activitiees in the church, I also work part-time as a house-keeper and a clerical job, things i thought I would never do. I feel happy with my life even though I do not earn very much money or have a high position. God is the center in my life, and if I lost the little that I have, I feel I can still moove on. I believe we only have one life to live but it is temporary, and one day we will have a mansion in heaven if that is what God want for us. I hope you feel better.
I\'ve been in and out of church. I\'ve been hurt very bad and shunned by one...and the memory of that keeps me from really being a part. I don\'t understand why I have to go through all this heartache so it blocks my desire for God. I hear what you\'re saying and the best times of life was when I was helping ppl through church but I feel very far from that.