It's a bad emotional Friday for me. I'm really down.
It's a bad emotional Friday for me. I'm really down. It's a cross between missing my Smokey and "why can't I get a job" and "what's wrong with me" kind of Friday. I have been crying off and on. I have to meet my friend Carol and we are going out for lunch. I think that is what the doctor ordered for me today. I need to get out of the one bedroom apartment that is for sure. It is sunny outside so that is a plus. I'm not crying now but my heart is really down cast. I need something incredibly wonderful to happen to me to bring my mood up. I think just getting out of the house, walking up to meet Carol, chatting to catch up and having something to eat will lift my spirits or I am hoping it will lift my spirits. There is nothing like going out with a girlfriend to chat and catch up to lift our moods. I just felt like chatting with everyone. How are you doing today? All the best from Diane B.
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I am sorry you are feeling this way, Diane. I feel the same way lately! It does help to get out, so I do go shopping once in a while, but I really can\'t afford it. I don\'t go anywhere just for fun because I can\'t afford the gas. The only other places I go are to family events once in a while. I don\'t have a girlfriend to do things with, just family, and they are all working or too busy. I have to work everyday anyway. The weather is still so lousy, I am not interested in anything, and feel like no one gives a damn. I still haven\'t forgotten how everyone ignored my email, so I did not get to go to the event myself. I sat here and worked yesterday. But my sister-in-law sent out an email about Easter, and they all answered right away. My sister-in-law did want to go the event with me, but she \"forgot\" and did not make time for it and was too busy yesterday. This is the last time I try to organize any event. If I want to do something, I will try to go by myself; if I can\'t go by myself, I just won\'t go. I find myself getting tearier than I had been for a long time. My favorite time is bedtime, because sleep is escape. I can forget. I still wake up every morning and swear to myself because I have to face another day.
Did you find out about the job interview? I wish you the best of luck if you didn\'t hear yet; I am very sorry if you know you did not get the job. I have given up on hoping for good things to happen because my life is not improving. I hate what it has become.
Best of luck and hugs to you,
Patti
I feel the same way like you do. Thngs don\'t seem to be improving. There is not anything positive coming our way. I never thought about it but I am blessed to have one girlfriend still living in Richmond. We get together every other week or so but it has been longer since I babysit 12 hours on Sunday, 5 hours on Mondays and Wednesdays with the occasional Friday. I don\'t mind as this is a good way for my grandson and I to get to know each other. Before my babysitting, I only saw Tyson a couple of times per month. I let Lisa dictate how often we would get together. I didn\'t want to overstay my welcome. I have heard nothing back from my 3 interviews. I have another interview this Wednesday. Apparently, I am well qualified and people are impressed by my resume. It hasn\'t done me any good as of yet. It\'s just a matter of time, which I hope is soon. At least this way, I will have a job to occupy me most of the time and make me feel useful. I am so sorry that we you try to organize events, no one responds either way. You can choose your friends but you can choose your family. All the best to you as well from Diane B.
Hope you are feeling better today. These ups and downs are all part of this journey and it seems like any other issue that comes up just adds to it. It is always good to have your girlfriends to talk with and bring you up. Hope things start to look up for you in hunt for a job. It is tough out there. My son isn\'t having much luck in that department either. Take care.
Hugs, Denise