It hurts too much to feel...

Sometimes, I sort of wish.. that I didn't feel anything.  I kinda knew he wouldn't be ready for anything serious, but still ... it hurts a bit for him to actually say it.  I guess it's because it is so much more real.  Before, it was just something I suspected... now it's real...  The other thing that bugs me.. is why on earth would he start all this.. saying that maybe we can be more than friends and what not.. if he isn't ready for it??? Why toy with my emotions like that.... I honestly think, he's scared and confused after what he's been through.. but that doesn't make it hurt any less... Sometimes.. I just wish, I could stop caring.. It hurts too much to care about people.  I almost want to be numb again.