It has been TOO long since I wrote on here
Hello Anyone that is reading this
I have not been on DS since May 2011. I think that is a good sign, but I am not sure. I was cleaning out my emails just now and noticed that I have not visited this site for a while. Any ALOT has occured since May, 2011 and today August 2012. First my sister got in engaged in May, then my sister future mother- in- law (a good friend of the family) died July 21st. Later, my mother got sick October 5 and on October 8th was diagnosed with CHF, congestive heat failure. She was fine, and went in for a regular examine at a new doctor. She recieve a flu shot and now this. She slipped into a coma later, she woke up and then again passed out and then later died. THIS IS/ WAS THE WORSE DAY OF MY LIFE!!! I AM ONLY 37 YEARS OLD, AND THIS SO FAR IS/ WAS THE WORSE DAY EVER!! I do not wish this sort of pain on anyone I hate, ( I dont hate anyone). She was doing bad, then good, then bad to worse and then not here anymore. DEATH is something that we watch on television and things like that but in real life it is not easy. I understand that it is a part of everyone's life but it still does not make it easy.
Also, all the while I had my children to look after and a temp, now regular job to keep. I know that all of my praying and reading my Bible helped my stay focus on the big picture all the while. SUICIDE was not an option, but has been thought of on several occassions, but in my religion, if you do, you will not make it to heaven and I know that is where my mother is. SOOOOO........ I have stayed strong and cried at nights or at work in the bathroom or in my car on the way to work. Trying to understand why God took my mother and not a crackhead instead. Yes, I think this way, because my Mother was a earthly saint spreading God's word and helping her neighbors and family. I know that anyone that is reading this willsay that I am saying this because she is my mother, but it is true. She had a lot of people at her funeral that said the same thing. My Mother was only 58 years old. Yes she had the little bouts of health issues but nothing like this!!!! I want to SUE THAT BITCH ASS DOCTOR THAT GAVE MY MOTHER THAT SHOT, SHE DID NOT KNOW MY MOTHER WELL ENOUGH TO GIVE HER A FLU SHOT. MY MOTHER HAS NOT TAKEN A FLU IN 20 YEARS PRIOR.
Anyway, I am maintaining and keeping up appearances. I donot like my job anymore and i really want to roll over and die too, but I know that I must keep on keeping on... so I wake up and thank God for another day and thank him for my blessings. some people do not have a mother or had their mother for this many years. I feel robbed, but I keep on moving on... it has only been a few months so I try to think of positive things and keep my kids happy as possible.
Until nest time DS, be happy and Be Blessed!!!!!
I have not been on DS since May 2011. I think that is a good sign, but I am not sure. I was cleaning out my emails just now and noticed that I have not visited this site for a while. Any ALOT has occured since May, 2011 and today August 2012. First my sister got in engaged in May, then my sister future mother- in- law (a good friend of the family) died July 21st. Later, my mother got sick October 5 and on October 8th was diagnosed with CHF, congestive heat failure. She was fine, and went in for a regular examine at a new doctor. She recieve a flu shot and now this. She slipped into a coma later, she woke up and then again passed out and then later died. THIS IS/ WAS THE WORSE DAY OF MY LIFE!!! I AM ONLY 37 YEARS OLD, AND THIS SO FAR IS/ WAS THE WORSE DAY EVER!! I do not wish this sort of pain on anyone I hate, ( I dont hate anyone). She was doing bad, then good, then bad to worse and then not here anymore. DEATH is something that we watch on television and things like that but in real life it is not easy. I understand that it is a part of everyone's life but it still does not make it easy.
Also, all the while I had my children to look after and a temp, now regular job to keep. I know that all of my praying and reading my Bible helped my stay focus on the big picture all the while. SUICIDE was not an option, but has been thought of on several occassions, but in my religion, if you do, you will not make it to heaven and I know that is where my mother is. SOOOOO........ I have stayed strong and cried at nights or at work in the bathroom or in my car on the way to work. Trying to understand why God took my mother and not a crackhead instead. Yes, I think this way, because my Mother was a earthly saint spreading God's word and helping her neighbors and family. I know that anyone that is reading this willsay that I am saying this because she is my mother, but it is true. She had a lot of people at her funeral that said the same thing. My Mother was only 58 years old. Yes she had the little bouts of health issues but nothing like this!!!! I want to SUE THAT BITCH ASS DOCTOR THAT GAVE MY MOTHER THAT SHOT, SHE DID NOT KNOW MY MOTHER WELL ENOUGH TO GIVE HER A FLU SHOT. MY MOTHER HAS NOT TAKEN A FLU IN 20 YEARS PRIOR.
Anyway, I am maintaining and keeping up appearances. I donot like my job anymore and i really want to roll over and die too, but I know that I must keep on keeping on... so I wake up and thank God for another day and thank him for my blessings. some people do not have a mother or had their mother for this many years. I feel robbed, but I keep on moving on... it has only been a few months so I try to think of positive things and keep my kids happy as possible.
Until nest time DS, be happy and Be Blessed!!!!!
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