it fills me up

I felt my relationship with god as I was setting up chapel - I sought it out


in the solitude and nascent sunrise - amongst all the swirling imperfection within me, I 

 found it and it fills me up - thoughts on god were my benchmark 

my touchstone - gave me  faith, respect and perspective that each of us

is living here in terms of their relationship with god.

 

Then as services went on that thought morphed and helped me steep, like

into a warm pool, into the reality of

the relationships  in my life and around me are imperfect 

and yet I am ok with that - there is a lot of love there too -

I then thought on my faith after all this and as services went on

and also realized my relationship with my faith is imperfect too-

I can't meet it at every level - but I love god - 

and so outside of all that I just decided though all things considered

I would just have FAITH IN LIFE!! :) 

and that lifted my eyes out of fantastical thinking about what kinds of relationships

I was imagining in my head vs. the reality to grow and have them (a greater gift a broadening

of vision.)

It feels right, thinking outside the box and really a good mindset to keep!

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SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

Faith in life, and faith in building community so that we may never feel alone in our life journey! We are lifted by things that sit beside us on the individual islands of self reflection.
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Nikki!