it carries on...

thank you all my dear friends, for your great support.  pappa is not doing well, he has now developed pneumonia.  i just cant believe how doctors can be - "oh its no big deal really, we just drill 2 holes in the skull and drain the blood", they say.  my mouth like fell wide open.  i was like, did i hear that right?  he's 89 years old, and they're drilling holes into his brain! he's having brain surgery at this age!  he is fragile and blah blah blah, i just cant believe it. well, he had it done. he did seem a little more alert as they had drained blood out, but its such a disaster, the pneumonia, the deterioration, the loss of functioning. oh well, life still pulls us in all directions at all times. jarod was chosen for the soccer team - he's SO EXCITED!!  he's only 9 and the first time he's been in a team.  the first match was played yesterday and they lost. some of the kids were crying it was so cute.  jarod looked like a real little champ, and the coach loves him.today they played their second match, and they WON!  and jarod scored a goal !!  much excitement. of course being run down down with the other stress, i now have a bladder infection - debilitatingly painful for me, so i rested all afternoon and didnt go see pappa today. i feel so guilty.  i know everyone says we have to take care of ourselves FIRST, and that is what i'm doing, but i think it looks bad and i feel so guilty