Isolation

I don't like people. That is supposed to be taboo - something that is bad, shameful and should be changed. But I don't see it that way. Why is liking people a requirement of some sort? I find interaction with people to be stressful and not fun in any way. And yes, I suffer from loneliness. A contradiction? I long for one special companion. That's all. But people in general stress me out. So I avoid them as much as possible. And succeed to a large degree. For that I am thankful. I don't communicate well, am told I have poor social skills. In truth I am simply honest. I say what I really think without concern for how the other person will take it. I don't couch my words in niceties. I think that is phony and I prefer to be real. People don't like that - which is a main reason I don't like people. I know I don't fit into the world, never have and never will. I can't wait till I can leave this world, it's not fun at all.