Is this it?
I don't know, maybe I was expecting too much. I do have a lot more energy and do feel considerably better than I did. But....yeah , here is the but, I guess I expected I had hit on the miracle cure and now my body is acclimating to the beta blocker and the initial euphoria of being well everyday is starting to fade. I am wondering if it is because I need to do something different, will it be much better when I am working again? You know, when I have a purpose? Right now I have very little to do during the day and even though I awake much earlier than I had been I find mself going back to sleep out of sheer boredom. So I won't give up quite yet but it is disheartening to have it fizzle out or appear to fizzle out so quickly. I probably just need to adjust the med. I just hate saying I am having a "not so good day" again damn it.
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