is it special, or just another journal and still it serves

cheering you guys on ...from here!

feeding the good wolf here -

had an interesting morning at work -

the weekend had my mind all turned around with new ideas,

possibility and torment from outside my self

there were good new experiences

surprising happiness and frustrating dynamics...that left me feeling

flummoxed and twisted...

going back to work today was hard - I determined though

to make it a great day - and it would be a great day -

keeping on - keeping on -

and that got the day done - 

choose the attitude - eh?

I did my work - and felt along the way an openess to accept

the multidimensions of each of us - going along our paths

imperfect and full of the quixotic essence of what each of us is 

as an individual, rational, prickly, worried about work or whatever... 

and towards the end of my shift I started to have

some foreboding sense - and yet after some internal struggle with that -

I weighed the intrusive darkness on a scale..would it really be awful if 'what

I thought would happen' if it did? Or would it just be a kind of matter of fact thing

that would make it just another day? As that kind of turn of events has happened before!

...I was happy with that - and happily surprised 

by it too - 

So I came home...and what should I write about? I wanted to spill the beans of my

day's success and yet that action felt senseless and indulgent -

I tried to employ my mind to just do it and not be so lost in the writing

or outside of writing....if i can work on this crazy journal I can also work on something else too. 

Build build build create create create.

I might have the gnarling wolf inside me but perhaps I can push him into the right direction?

I'll get on with the day!