Is it any wonder ???

I don't understand him at all anymore. It used to be that I thought I understood him, at least to a point. Now I can't even say that much. His moods are so far out of control, it's beyond being fixed even by meds and therapy, I think. Of course that would depend on his willingness to do both of those things, and I know for a fact that that will never happen. Besides him not having insurance, he has a complete lack of confidence in ANY doctors' abilities whatsoever ! So I can not imagine him actually sitting down with a therapist in order to discuss his mood swings, and his rages. 

It's almost 12 noon May 1 st - Wed. - and I'm waiting on M.O.W. 

I'm hoping that because of the painters out there, that they don't have a very hard time walking up to my door today. 

Hopefully they'll figure out a way.

Right now Ray is OUT for awhile.... and I'm hoping that it'll turn out that he'll STAY out for a long long while today, so I can have some peace and quiet for a change. 

Back to the title of this post... " Is it any wonder ? "

What I meant by that was... " Is is any wonder why I'm NOT ' lovey-dovey ' with Ray ? " 

HOW can I be with at least 8 times out of 10... or at least 7 times out of 10... all he ever shows me is outright RAGE !.... HATE... CRUELTY... and PURE EVIL !!!!