Is isolation bad?
I wish I knew the answer to that. I beat myself up for not getting out more. I tell myself I need to socialize more. I feel so lonely at times (tho I won't really admit this to tdoc) The fact that I am lonely is embarrassing. I feel ashamed and like a "loser".
Today I have/had 2 opportunities to socialize. Both were positive things with activities and people I like. I woke up feeling like I wanted to just end it all ( I wake up like that a lot) then remembered there were things I could do today. I felt better for a bit. Then the pressure was on to socialize. I felt dread. I felt guilt for not wanting to go out. I didn't feel better until I decided I would not go out. Now later I will be feeling like crap again because I stayed home and did nothing except eat and watch TV and play on the computer.
Repeat cycle tomorrow. Weekdays not so bad because I have work so I can justify not going out.
Anyone have any outside perspective on this awful cycle?
Today I have/had 2 opportunities to socialize. Both were positive things with activities and people I like. I woke up feeling like I wanted to just end it all ( I wake up like that a lot) then remembered there were things I could do today. I felt better for a bit. Then the pressure was on to socialize. I felt dread. I felt guilt for not wanting to go out. I didn't feel better until I decided I would not go out. Now later I will be feeling like crap again because I stayed home and did nothing except eat and watch TV and play on the computer.
Repeat cycle tomorrow. Weekdays not so bad because I have work so I can justify not going out.
Anyone have any outside perspective on this awful cycle?
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