Is He Staying or Leaving ?
Is he staying, or leaving ? I wish I could say I knew for sure. This not knowing is driving me NUTS ! Of course he denies what I saw for my own eyes. I saw it black and white where he said that today he's moving - Saturday. He mentioned this to another woman on facebook messenger. Yes I was spying on him. Wrong ? Yes, I know. But if you knew his past I think you'd understand why I did it. I can never keep a secret though. Yesterday I talked to him on the phone - ( from here at my Dad's ) - and I ended up admitting to him about being able to see ALL of his facebook messenger conversations because he had used my laptop once to sign into it, and he had never logged out. So of course, naturally he was very angry at me for it. One reason he was angry, I'm sure, was because I caught him. The other reason was because of it being a violation of his privacy rights, and ALL of those Other Women's privacy rights too. I feel bad because of that second reason, but as far as the first reason goes, he deserved to be caught. It may be very wrong of me to say this, but I can't help regretting being very HONEST to him on the phone last night when I told him that I FINALLY logged out of the facebook messenger application so that I CAN NO longer see His facebook messenger conversations with ALL of those Other Women. IF I hadn't logged out then I would know what he's been saying to those Other Women today, and I would see IF he's said AGAIN to ANY of them that he is moving TODAY !
I wish I could simply trust him when he says he's not leaving.... but how do I really know when he's been fliritng so agressively with so many Other Women ?
Knowing how he thinks, he'll probably even go as far as to use my " spying " on him through facebook messenger as a supposed " reason " to leave me today ! That's the ironic backfire twist of this entire situation. I thought I was " spying " on him to keep myself informed, but it may completely backfire on me, and push him away further. Though to be truthful to myself... " How close am I really to him when he's been flirting so agressively with so MANY OTHER WOMEN ? " He obviously doesn't take Our Relationship entirely seriously. If he did then he wouldn't be doing that much flirting. I can understand some, but when you continuously tell others that you're SINGLE, and you're " looking " for a girlfriend, lover, and more... " HOW can you possibly be taking your current relationship seriously ?! "
Will it turn out that he's leaving me today ? OR will he truly STAY like he CLAIMS he is, when I talked to him on the phone last night ?
Time will tell.... The thing is I won't really knew for SURE until the NEXT TIME I talk to him on the phone, AND / OR until I get BACK HOME on July 6 th !
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