Inpatient

Right now I am in patient at Crisis Residential for my mental health.  I was overwhelmed with the intrusive thoughts, anxiety, and depression.
 
When I leave here I will be back to sleeping at a shelter which I am frankly tired of.  I want to have money and my own place to live.  I want to be independent.  I know there are things I am going to have to do and things I am going to have to accept about myself in order to find my independence and have my own place to live and call home.  One thing I have to accept is my addiction to drugs and alcohol and the way I used them to cope with my mental illness.  The only medicine I should be taking are ones prescribed to me.  This is a hard one for me because I have that urge for instant gratification.  I think I am going to have to stay active in the Narcotics Annon. program.  Meetings, literature, sponsorship, etc.  Not using drugs or alcohol to cope is a big one for me because I will never have an independent life while actively using drugs or alcohol.  It's also huge because I like the way certain drugs make me feel and the relief that I get from them.  I am definitely going to stay involved in the program.