infinity loop

I'm starting the day - I layed in bed for a little bit - and my mind yearned for something


to believe in - to give me strength - to answer unanswered questions about myself and my life. A voice of reassurance that everything would be ok.

I find myself ruminating at the surface of things - collecting all details of the divine flow

of the moment -reinforcement that isn't used to push me forward but keep me in place or keep me treading-

I'm knowing I need to look beyond that and just keep myself on target.

I got my clothes ready and packed for my overnight trip - I think I might go to Dunkin' for a coffee. It's the only place around here for miles and miles.

I'm wondering if this collecting of details that I do to skim and tread water at the surface

of life is nature or nurture - perhaps a bit of both- but I am aiming at habituating

my resolution to have bigger and maintained goals.

I don't know if any of this makes sense - time to stop trying to capture my experience

which in essence is an infinity loop for inaction.

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arfie
arfie

the biggest reason i hate nature versus nurture debates is i don't believe you can have one without the other. without nurture it is natural to die.
malibumark
malibumark

thanks arfie :)