infatuation

so. now im infatuated... a yr n two ago i never believed id feel that way again, but here i am. but now i believe i just wanna love 'im then leave 'im. i believe i do not want a long term commitment. i look at old men n realize i do NOT want to grow old together with someone. i do NOT want to live with someone ever again. i do NOT want a relationship like that... i just want flings... i love the excitement of getting to know someone, of chasing after them, of catching them, (and honestly) getting bored with them and letting them go, and moving on to the next "victim." but at the same time i dont want to hurt anyone. i gotta find someone who does NOT want a long term commitment, and who wants the same thing as i do! seems possible, right? i just cant make promises. no promises. i feel comfortable with this idea. [since im still trying to figure things out]
"...trying to figure myself out... to be continued..."
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{for future reference: aaron}