in the face of feeling meaningless
feeling meaningless and incredibly light this morning...I woke up
at the usual time, got dressed and zoomed over to get coffee at 5am.
Came home and my life feels pointless, with out meaning - - but I do
know that I have to take care of things - and with high hopes
this will set into motion the action and spirit of the day for me..
So it goes, it'll be be alright.. SO grateful for my journal
and sharing with you guys.
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I think to have our routines and rituals to comfort us - as well as each other, reaching out to each other to cross
the boundaries of each others' worlds along the paths we have - like astronauts - we keep each other going!
I am in a vague zone this morning - maybe if I had something planned for my Monday- usually I have deliveries to do
for my parents... and so maybe 'that incongruity' is having me see my life through a questioning lens this morning after having so much
going on this weekend with a haircut and caroling on Saturday and then a zoom call and church on Sunday...maybe
it's like I am looking for some meaning to rely on and it's ok to have that - I cherish my relationships with friends and family...
I think about my friend the Abbess a lot - and we text all the time - and after going to the St. Max's church yesterday, I very well can't wait for next Sunday...maybe I should make a plan today - I had coffee this morning - and have some recorded shows I could watch - but maybe if I help somebody today that would be an affirming thing..
it's the way I make sense of things - and it's ok.. I'll text my parents to see if they need help today.
Ah, you are keeping your mind focused and learning what works to give you the balance that provides comfort.
Here's to your success.
Thanks Mid!