In the Brandon hospital right now - 3 / 12 / 19

I've been here in the Brandon hospital for 9 days, since March 3 rd. I'm extremely bloated in my middle / abdomen area, and my legs are very swollen also - as well as having cellulitus in my lower legs. 

The thing is now, that after being in bed for days, now I'm having a very hard time trying to stand, and take steps with my walker. Somehow - with God's help - I have to have the strength, and drive to accomplish this. I have to be able to stand up, and take some steps with my walker in order to be discharged back to my apartment. They told me today that if I don't improve soon they'll need to transfer me to a rehab center. 

They didn't say where it would be, but that's not the entire problem with doing that. 

The thing is if I'm in a rehab, then Ray won't be able to do a monthly deposit into my account the way he usually does. The only thing I can think of right now is to convince him to pay the Spectrum bill either online - which I'm pretty positive he won't do - or he could go into the local Spectrum store to pay the bill for the phone number 813 - 502 - 6324. All he would need to would be to tell them that I'm in the hospital, so he needed to come in to pay the bill. That should be enough, especially when he tells them what phone number it's for. 

I pray he'll be patient and understanding about this, and do this for Us. I'll explain to him that I'll pay the Rent, and the Electric from my SSD. I'll have enough to pay those 2 bills without his help. This would be okay for now since it wouldn't be possible for him to get to me in the Rehab. I hope, and pray that he'll understand all of this... and like I said be patient about it. 

Right now I'm resting, and trying to DE-stress. I'm trying very hard to push away the stress and anxiety that is boiling up in me like a hurricane - or major sand storm. 

Please God.. Please God... Please be with me as I know you've always been, and always will be in the future. PLEASE GOD be with me now, and give me the strength, drive, determination, and focus, to stand and walk with Your help, and with Your Angels help - that really is Your Power.... since they get their Power from You my God. PLEASE be with me during physical therapy, and help me. Give me the power I'll need to accomplish what they want me to do. Please help me GOD !