IN MOURNING!!
THIS WAS ME BABY JIJI AT 3 MONTHS. I AM WRITING IN BLACK, THE COLOR OF MOURNING. I AM IN A DEEP STATE OF MOURNING OVER THE LOSS OF MY SWEETIE. I AM IN A DOWNWARD SPIRAL. I HAVE CRIED MORE IN TWO DAYS THAN IN THE LAST TEN YEATS. TODAY IS THE BEGINNING OF DAY THREE AND STILL NO SIGN...NO HOPE. I HAVE PRAYED UNTIL I AM ALMOST PRAYED OUT. I SWING FROM BEING ANGRY AT GOD TO BEGGING HIM FOR HER SAFE RETURN. I AM JSUT BESIDE MYSELF. MY HUSBAND EVEN TOOK YESERDAY OFF WORK ON THE PRETEXT THAT HE WAS LOOKING FOR JIJI. THAT WAS PART OF IT BUT IT WAS MORE THAT HE WAS WORRIED ABOUT MY EMOTIONAL/MENTAL STATE. YEAH, SO AM I !!I FEEL LIKE A HUGE PART OF MY HEART AND SOUL ARE MISSING. I KNOW SOME OF YOU MAY THINK, IT'S ONLY A DOG..GET OVER IT. BUT TO ME SHE WAS SO...MUCH MORE. MY OTHER ANIMALS SENSE MY DESPAIR AND ARE ALWAYS TRYING TO LICK OR SNUGGLE ME. THEY ARE VERY SENSITIVE TO THE MOODS OF THEIR OWNERS.I KEEP TRYING TO BE POSITIVE BUT SOMETHING INSIDE JUST TELLS ME THAT I MAY NEVER SEE HER AGAIN!! IN THIS CASE, I HOPE THAT SOMEONE FOUND HER AND HAS GIVEN HER A GOOD HOME, SMALL COMFORT BUT BETTER THAN THE ALTERNATIVE, THAT SHE IS LOST, HUNGRY, COLD AND SCARED AND THAT SHE WILL DIE!!FOLKS, I KNOW THAT THIS LETTER IS VERY DEPRESSING AND I AM SORRY TO SUBJECT YOU TO MY GRIEF. BUT I REALLY NEED AN OUTLET FOR MY PAIN. I ALSO NEED YOUR CONTINUED THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.I THANK ALL OF YOU, AND THERE HAVE BEEN MANY HERE ON DS, SOME I DON'T EVEN KNOW, THAT HAVE SENT POSITIVE NOTES. PLEASE, KEEP IT UP.I PROBABLY WILL NOT BE ANSWERING YOUR JOURNALS FOR AWHILE BUT I DO READ THEM. I JUST CAN'T FOCUS ON ANYTHING AND THE CRYING DOESN'T HELP.THANK YOU , FRIENDS.DEBBIE
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Honey, you post all you want about how you feel, it is your journal to do what you please with.....I cant imagine how much your heart is breaking right now. Mollie (our lab) is ornery, and runs away sometimes. I am worried sick when that happens. You are right, all you can think of is all the bad things that might happen to them. Your baby is so tiny, it makes me shivver to think how you feel. It is like worrying for a child who is missing or in trouble.
I pray that someone comes forward with her........If nothing else, you can hope that someone found her and kept her and is taking good care of her. Honey, please take care of you, please use your coping skills to stay in a balanced state of mind, keep yourself busy.
You are in my heart and I am praying for you.......Hugs
Debbie, our pets are our children and we worry about them as if they are our babies who can not voice there concerns. You keep writting what\'s in your heart so we know how to pray for you & Jiji. Take care my friend, many are praying for you & for Jiji\'s safe return home.
hugs hon, Cathy
I intend to come on here one day and find that your dog is back home!
Praying....
debbie i will continue to keep you and your puppy in my prayers.. kave you put out posters and an ad with a reward in the newspaper.. i am sure you have.. i hope and pray for jiji safe eturn.. hugs .for you ..stay strong.. i know she is your baby and i totally understand how important our babys are to us.. ..marie
I\'m sory that I understand all too well. It really does rip a hole in youre heart.
Oh Debbie, I feel your anguish. I will continue prayers for you and Jiji, I pray for her safe return, I pray for you to have strength and to not plummet into despair. I don\'t know what else to say cause I know that no words will make it better at this time. Hang in there. xo
mary
Don\'t give up hope. Be sure to check with the local animal shelters. My sisters lost their cat, and it turned out that people found the cat (they lived near a big park, which the cat would often roam in) took it to a shelter, thinking it was lost & needed to be saved, when, in actuality, the cat was only 50 feet from its home. Sometimes people think they are helping animals when they are really taking them out of their known environment.
I hope you find your beloved pet.
Damn, I was so hoping to come here today and see that Jiji had been found and was safe at home with her mommy. Don\'t worry about what people may think, she is not \"only a dog\" she is a part of your heart. Believe me I know what your going through and I\'d be just as bad if it were my baby missing.
Our human children touch us in many ways but there is something so pure and trusting about the love animals give us.
I know when I\'m sick or feeling out of sorts all my cats and dogs want to snuggle and give me loves and try to ease the pain. They are such blessings. Don\'t give up on her and keep those prayers going as I will. Love ya
Never In a million years would I say she is just a dog. They are our babies and I totally understand your pain. I think of you all the time and am still praying a miracle will happen and she will be found. I am also praying for you to have the strength to not get to depressed although I know that will be hard to do. See you in my prayers. Love Naomi xo
***HUGS*** I am praying for Jiji\'s safe return. Maybe look on kijiji to see if anyone has found/rescued her. Praying that you feel God\'s embrace around you comforting you during this difficult time. ***HUGS*** Take care and God bless.
I am so sorry about about JiJi missing. My prayers and thought are with you both!