In a bad mood

Hello old friend! Daily strength that is, I've missed writing and thought about it often. I cannot believe it's been almost a year since my last login. Unfortunately I have no amazing news, I have not received my expungement yet and am in the process of a legal fight to keep my drivers license because when my paperwork was finally submitted (1 year later than it should have been) it triggered the fact that they never took my drivers license as was supposed to happen... Eight long years ago! 
I have been struggling lately, and missed writing so here I am. 
 
I want to cry and have been weepy, I want to scream and I haven't..yet, but I feel just idk not right! I can't lose hope I'm holding on but I'm just in a bad mood.