im thinkin about getting a divorce....

the bible says that i can certainly do this.  its not sinful.  i think the Lord would prefer that we stay 2gether and rebuild.  im not sure that i can and right now im torn even with wanting 2.  the more i think about this the more im not sure if its worth it.  financially its been easier since we got married, but ive made so many compromises and consessions 4 his happiness.  2 support him.  i dont wanna do it anymore.  and now knowin what hes capable of right under my nose makes me less willing 2 make those concessions & compromises.  its like u totally fucked me over why shd i cook ur dinner?  ive bn having idont know panic attacks or stress attacks or something.  where my heart races and last night i cldnt stand with out lookin like i was gonna fall over.  then i slept 4 6 hrs and the woke @ like 2.  did some stuff went back 2 bed round 5ish and then @ 8 was feelin so weak.  my appetite has bn up and down.  more down.  havent felt like eating. may b more a disinterest than lack of hunger.  which is a switch 4 me.  id think that id b just eating everything in site.  i am a better person than i was b4 we got married,but it has nothing 2 do with the marriage.  i cant think of anything it has added 2 me other than children.  if thats the case what is there 2 save?