I’m on a new kick
I asked myself the question tonight if all my questioning and wisdoms are helping me live
My daily life. I realized I can probably throw away some of my proclivities which don’t serve me and my building and maintaining a life.
Before I came to this conclusion, I went to a lecture tonight during which I thought about the excruciating detail with which I have been trying to organize and understand my life. It probably is a sign of my vulnerability to a certain extent, why I have chosen a life of monastic living which is so, in some ways, affirmation in a very specific and concentrated form.
I thought about how in this group of monastics I don’t feel like anyone special or valued and it has suggested that I must use my inner resources for coping at self validating and in truth I have felt so at a loss for grounding myself that I’ve striven to define myself as a kind of protest to my own natural need.
By not having significant other relationships and social stuff too.
But again, I think if I frame my whims and intellectual pursuits with the pragmatic statement of ‘is this helping me serve (build and maintain) my life? I think I can benefit from the help that statement gives for discerning worthy pursuits. These big insights might tell me something about my patterns but reframing my thoughts in this pragmatic It also helps me feel the agency and reasonability to just get on with things rather than dwell or ruminate on things that lead no where.
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i find myself wanting to copy and paste this into a forum post. it would make a most excellent open discussion while stimulating the forum activity. just wanting. . . in this case, i believe that framing my whims with a pragmatic statement might result in, "MYOB." (mind your own business) whether or not this topic would be good in open forum is not mine to decide.
just saying. . .
Hugs. Perhaps you should be writing a book during monastic days?
Big hug sweetie
I think that we're all important since we live in God's image
You are doing some deep thinking!!
Do you ever reflect on old journals sweetie?
I did that years ago when I was in the hospital and they actually surprised me
Thanks you guys! Arfie if you want to make this a post go ahead! It’s cool.
I think I am just being open now to the love that’s here
and so I am indeed seeing that I have a place and loving around me.
i don't feel anywhere near right forcing you into open forum, nor trying to manage a thread of your work.
when you are ready to expand that place of loving around you, you will do it yourself.
Thanks Arfie!
In one way or another we all need some kind of support that is not weakness
Thanks ccleaver