I'm learning to trust myself

I do dig deep in my body when I am searching for answers...

I had a great conversation with my Doctor today

and she said a sure sign of good mental health is when we

have a sense of compassion for ourselves and those close to us, all the way around.

The conversation just had me feeling sanguine and with a sense of community about my life.

I really love her - she's a great doctor.

I was laying on my bed watching tv and I just was so friggin' bored from

not having my work and the demand to keep inside because of covid.

My mind started to splay and I lost the sense of sanity - 

but I'll say to myself that it probably is no wonder I am starting to fray at the edges

mentally. I have to quarantine - and there's a very limited set of things I can do 

here...I was feeling nearly frozen in place - and I started to dive into my body for

answers about what I should do...?

Thankfully I caught it - caught the old reaction and I remembered a lesson I had in

3rd grade....in a moment of questioning, ask yourself "who, what, where, when and how?"

and so I did. I've got an idea of what I can do here and then get onto the night time routine.

It's boring but it's what I've got. For some reason the theme of education has been

coming a lot to me today. Times in college, times in highschool and my ontime foray into 

investigating becoming a teacher. I do love academia, and did quite well in that environment.

I was lacking guidance during school but maybe I could offer that to my students if I ever take the dive

into that arena? Ah well...part and parcel of re-parenting and guiding myself much like

I would guide a young passionate mind....cultivate a growing garden when I see signs of thriving minds.. :)