I'm brOKen
I'm so lost right now. Where do I even begin to start recovering my sense of worth and importance toy wife and kids?
I have done a lot of soul searching and discovered a lot of things I never knew about myself. Some good, some ok and some that are toxic to me which results in the toxicity reaching my marriage and relationship with my kids. I was able to let go of alot of anger and resentment that I thought were because of my wife. I feel better about it however, it cost my marriage.
There has to be something better than where and what I am.
If there is not, where do I go from here?
I feel like a horrible Demon who has cut off his own horns and renounced his evil nature and is now seeking redemption to those he has hurt and destroyed.
Am I better off remaining the demon that I once was?
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I'm sorry you feel like a demon. Everyone has a bad side, and things we do when we're at our worst can lead to regrets. However, we cannot change the past; we can only learn from our mistakes and take steps to ensure we don't make the same ones in the future.
Regarding redeeming yourself, what goes a long way when it comes to relationships is showing that you are putting in the effort. In addition to talking about how you're going to change (assuming change is needed), take the necessary steps to begin working on yourself. This will demonstrate that you sincerely plan on doing things differently. As the old adage goes, "actions speak louder than words."
I hope things work out for you and your family. Wishing you peace.
You don't sound like a demon, I usually don't get much on this site but today I see a lot of pain and sincerity. I too feel lost and really have been "trying" to move on but to no avail. I hope things start to get better for you, stay in touch maybe we can build some support. They say it takes time but that spells pain to me.