im back.....well I'm trying
well it's been awhile ladies....im sorry ive strayed...i jst hope i still have support on here
im a healthy weight....i have mixed emotions about this....i look normal ....yah! ,but i feel out of control....i do eat better but i think most of the weight is muscle from my sick gym obsession....i go when im sick when im tired hell i even worked out on a sprained ankle......ive switched off pRozac and hsve lost a few lbs...but thst could also be due to my newest bad habit....ive been purging regularly...and binging and purging which is gross....ive filled up my share of grocery bags with puke....i just hope my parents dont figure out thats y the outside garbage reeks....this morning i ate a half box of triscuits a half box of wheat thins some cheez its some pretzels two thick pieces of bread some greek yogurt two bowls of shredded wheat a about the equivalent of an entire box of oatmeal....and i lost half a pound after i got done with the purging.....im so gross
please give me some encouraging words to help me stop binging...it scares me....and the only things that help me feel better r purging and obsessively working out.....also i tried to update my pic via my phone but no such luck
im a healthy weight....i have mixed emotions about this....i look normal ....yah! ,but i feel out of control....i do eat better but i think most of the weight is muscle from my sick gym obsession....i go when im sick when im tired hell i even worked out on a sprained ankle......ive switched off pRozac and hsve lost a few lbs...but thst could also be due to my newest bad habit....ive been purging regularly...and binging and purging which is gross....ive filled up my share of grocery bags with puke....i just hope my parents dont figure out thats y the outside garbage reeks....this morning i ate a half box of triscuits a half box of wheat thins some cheez its some pretzels two thick pieces of bread some greek yogurt two bowls of shredded wheat a about the equivalent of an entire box of oatmeal....and i lost half a pound after i got done with the purging.....im so gross
please give me some encouraging words to help me stop binging...it scares me....and the only things that help me feel better r purging and obsessively working out.....also i tried to update my pic via my phone but no such luck
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Here\'s some encouraging words Missy: What you ate is not much of a \"binge\". Consider yourself lucky at this point because those binges WILL esculate to unbelievable proportions if you don\'t stop now. And it IS hard to stop, no doubt, when you see the reward of weight loss. I\'m so sad to even learn that you went down this path.
Welcome back by the way!
So nice to hear from you Dear! I am so sorry you are suffering from bulimia. But I have every confidence in you that you will get better and make a great life for yourself.
Please be gentle with yourself Melissa. The binge part makes sense as you started to awaken the parts of you you had kept asleep for so very long....You starved and turned off all of those sensors, and now that you had been taking better care of yourself, thos things are starting to wake back up. Like Gran said, I know that you will get better...and get better quickly... Things will start to balance out....When we have tricked our bodies for so long, it takes a bit for things to balance...it is not a wonder that you are getting hungry, and then feeling insatiable. Your little body has been ecstatic that you are putting food in it, and nurturing yourself. The purge part..well...that makes sense too, as you are not used to feeling the food in there! Again, be gentle with you, and when those voices come in saying you are \"not enough\", tell them to FUCK OFF! I am here Sweetness, and I know what you are going through and feeling. You are not alone. We Go Together..
Please call, text, write...anytime...XOXOXOXOXOXOXOX