If I'm doing everything right why do I still feel like crap?

I'm so incredibly angry and frustrated at this illness.  I have done everything right and I'm still bouncing all over the place.  We've adjusted my meds a bunch of times and while I have noticed a positive change, I still feeIl so broken.  It's been a year and I guess its too much to ask that I have this under control right now.  I just feel shattered, exausted, and angry.  I feel like an elephant is on my chest and I just can't breathe.  When is this going to stop?