If I don't like it, I am done.

I know that its freaky, but I feel that I need to write a pros and cons list about suicide. I am feeling more and more like things in life are bringing me down. School is over for the semester and summer wont start until June. We are moving houses and the situation is pretty stressful but not as much as it really could be. We are all moving stuff ourselves and letting the movers move the larger items. Tomorrow It is just going to me myself and Chi. My dad is going to be at work and step brother at school since he is not finished yet. I don't know what I am depressed about but I am and I really cant stop thinking about suicide. Every time that I think about a situation I a always think "well I can just kill myself if it gets worse." I don't know what's wrong with me. I love the movie Donnie Darko and I keep watching it over and over again and it is depressing and it makes death feel easy and natural. Now it's time for ice cream and a movie. 
 
good night moon