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I deserve to die. I am a terrible human being. No wonder no one in this world could ever actually love me. I deserve to die. I have a problem and every time I try to fix it, it doesn't happen. I am lower than nothing. I deserve to die. I need to kill myself for everyone else's sake. All I do is hurt people when I don't mean to. I am terrible. I deserve to die. Killing myself will make everyone's lives not only easier but happier. I will never be happy due to the fact that I am a terrible human being. I deserve to die. I hate being a liar. I seriously try to stop. I have been. Sometimes it pops out and I don't want to look like the stupidest sack of shit even though that's what I am. I am a piece of shit that ruins people's lives. People that I love stay by my side and I hurt them. Even if I don't kill myself I need to remove myself from everyone. I want someone to tell me that it's okay but that right there is feelings coming before reality. I deserve to die. I deserve to be locked up forever. I don't deserve to be happy or loved or even to love. I deserve nothing but to suffer. I fuck up. That's the Maddie way. It's not even self pity it's the truth. I don't deserve to live. I don't deserve people to be kind to me. I don't deserve a roof over my head. To be with someone who genuinely wants to be with me. To be surrounded by the cutest kids in the world.
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Don't do it! You said it yourself. People you love stay by your side. Maybe they love you back. Maybe they're trying to help. Please don't kill yourself.
There are much worse people in the world who have committed terrible crimes and they refuse to change. They refuse to be sorry for their actions. You are not one of those people. You're clearly sorry for whatever you've done. That's a good thing. You starting to change for the better. Please take harmless actions to better yourself instead. Exercise, do research on whatever you like, read, eat healthy, but please don't kill yourself. You deserve love.
You’re still very young and life can be hard and confusing this only gets easier with age .unfortunately ..
Don’t be hard on yourself and I know that’s easier said then done I’ve hated myself so much when I was younger I was a horrible person sometimes to my family and peers .. but I’m glad I never tried to kill myself as now I’m older with children and a grandchild on the way none of that would have been possible ... if you are able try travelling see the world meet different people and see how they live etc life is what you make it Hun and I hope you will experience the good things and start to love yourself x