I wrote this early sat morning

I am writing this like 4 am Sat morningwell....... tonight was not a good night by any means.. I went to bed around 11 pm...   I knew was just gonna pull the shit of not coming home... well... 2 am this morning he comes into bedroom and tried getting into bed...  I told him to get out.. he of course wouldnt.... which turned into a mess of me laying down and shoving him out..crying asking him to please just leave me alone.. to stop doing this to me.. stop torturing me.. cause at this point I mean I was at my breaking point.. I was at the end of a tiny.. little... string...  I grabbed my phone to call someone to come help me after a half hour of him doing this to me...of yelling and screaming, and trying to get into bed with me....  and he grabbed my hand and squeezed super hard.. to try to break my phone and or get it out of my hand..  well for one..... I couldnt let go cause he was squeezing it so tight... and 2 I wasnt gonna let him take my only source of help away..  I wasnt gonna let it go.. I was determined... to hang on to that... like it was the last bit of dignity I had...  I wasnt gonna let him break another cell phone of mine.... so he grabbed a ankle and tried pulling it ...holding it.....squeezing it.  I am not sure.. but that will be bruised in the morning as well.....I know my hand is swollen...   anyways......so I kicked back at him .. and he stumbled backwords.. caught himself..  and freaking EXPLODED.. he bashed /tore/punched my closet doors off in the bedroom... tore them all the fuck up.. I have wood pieces everywhere.. He honestly scared the shit out of me... I was like are u shitting me..  and what does he say?  CLASSICof course.. that I did it... that I MADE him do it... my god..that I pissed him off.....  u should see my room its like a tornado went through it...so he leaves the room right...........  so I grabbed my cell to take a couple pictures (before he comes back in), and I go out of the living room because I dont hear him .... and do U KNOW where he went?  INTO MY 6 year olds ROOM... He went in there .. and woke her up....... to talk to her and to give her a kiss...  AT 3 AM   AFTER he just got finished torturing her mother for a half hour in the bedroom, and making firewood of the closet doors...