I wrote something and then deleted it

I wrote a post (but I deleted it)

about going to sleep early as I am scheduled to work tomorrow

bright and early. It's out of the ordinary for me..and I wrote a post about

wanting to be kind of selfish tonight..

I talked about having some alcohol - but knowing it's not good for me and also

thank god I have none in the house..so not doing that...

I also talked about having a joint - and I know that's not good for me either

and I don't have any pot and usually don't - nor am I condoning its use with MI and no judgements

if you do.. whatever works...

My parents did once give me a CBD gummy to try before bedtime - which was really lovely in its effect - tasted really good

and sent me to sleep really nicely... But I don't have that in the house either.

So I thought to stick with the standard.. :0) a bowl of cheerios with almond milk LOL!!

And then after I wrote it I got weirded out that I wrote the post and deleted it but I 

decided to write it again...on principle to tell you guys what I was thinking

about and not avoiding my peers.

I am really looking forward to working tomorrow. 

Have a good night guys!! xx