I would like to have a family of my own

I would like to have a family of my own.
To love,cherish and take care of my family.
Reproducing have been on my mind ...since I was a little girl.
I have been a babysitter,live in nanny,day care work and having children is more than a life change for me.
It's having more of me...into a world that needs more sincere ,honest, loving, care people that enjoys helping others reach for their dreams and make the world a better place to be.
I have accomplished alot of things that I wanted to do with my family and my life.
I watch the Baby Story  or at least when I am available to do ,so.
Sometimes,I feel like wishing for a child because I am not willing to adopt at time.Although I would love to help a child...having his or her biological parents take my buddle of joy.Would be a bitter and happy moment but nothing that I would want to put myself through.
Especially when I would have to explain that I am not your biological mother.I am sorry but that sounded like heartbreak that I shouldnot  have to go through,if I don't put myself in that position.
It may sound harsh but what effects do think a situation may have on that particular child,I refuse to put a child through confusion,heart break, headache and feel like no one wants them,I don't have the heart to put a child through that.
 
I would like to have my own family.