I wonder sometimes if this was what God had intended for me in life... the abuse from my stepfather

I wonder sometimes if this was what God had intended for me in life...
 
why was I meant to experience abuse for 2 years+ from my stepfather at age 6-10?
why did my Mom take my stepfather back 6 months after the abuse at age 10?
why did my mom take my stepfather back after he cheated on her at age 16?
why was it okay for him to steal my bras, swim suits, underwear, clothing age 16-21?
why was i raped by my stepfathers softball teammate at age 20?
why did she buy a house months after my stepfather groped me. but, yet when he cheated 6months later it was okay to let him leave finally for good at age 21?
why was I the bad person because I became pregnant from my rape at age 21?
why was I the "baby killer" "slut" cause I terminated my rapist pregnancy at age 21?
why? why? why?
I ask myself this all the time... I love my Mom... I know she herself was abused for years (beat), raped, had to have a termination.... but, why did she allow him to do this all to me... call me those names, abuse me.... then forgive him over and over... why did it take this many years for her to see he did not deserve a place in our home but, a place in jail.... i wish I could post the facebook photos of my abuser on here... of him smiling and enjoying his life on his boat with his new wife which is clueless that he is a monster....
 
but, I won't.... I'm bigger than that and find that it wouldn't make a difference... it's too late to report him.... but, I can enjoy my life that i have now.... maybe God didn't intend for this life I had as a child but, the life that I have now.... maybe these events had to happen for me to have the future i deserve.... i can only hope that was his intentions....