I wonder if I can handle

I am just so angry the days go by I get more angry, i almost feel like I hate my stbx. the fact that I know he is being nice to me to basically get what he can ( a place to stay for now) just urks me to no end . But the divorce is in the process of being seen by the judge , the lawyers assistant said it will take 4-6 weeks to get the final stamped divorce papers. Then we are officially divorced. I figure I have made it almost 2 months still with him here , so I can do 2 more . I am hoping. He is still giving me money for bills which does help me for now keep things afloat. After he moves out I will do my best to pay everything I need to . Might as well just deal with it longer to make it financially easier for me for now. If he is being friendly better for me right? Even though I can't hardly stand him. It's really hard But if he wants to use me I should use him, we aren't fighting so it's ok for our child . Inside me though there is a fire of hatred burning. I will do my best . It's almost over. Afterward I will have more healing I need to do but I will deal with that after he actually leaves my residence . Ugh !!!! Life sure does suck right now . I should go watch a comedy on Netflix or something. I will just go absolutely nuts if I keep feeling angry . Sigh ~~~