I wonder...

I've had some intrusive thoughts this week, along with my low moments. I know I'm gonna dream tonight too. I've been thinking mostly about abusive relationships. I'm cool now, but I do wonder if it's going to happen in real life...will my next guy I talk to be abusive too (emotionally again? sexually again? Will he be physically abusive...)? I wonder...will my thoughts become real life...and if they do, than what am I supposed to do about it? How will I respond to it? I wonder what will happen to me...