I wish it was over
I wish I could go to sleep and leave this body behind. I wish I didn't have to wake up and find myself in this same life. I know that one day I will be free of it, I just wish it was soon. Continuing on for years more is a thought very hard to bear. Every night when I lay down to sleep I wish my hardest that this will be the night I will be freed, and every morning when I wake up to the same life I am crushed. I don't want any more experiences of any kind in this lifetime - I want to be free of it. I don't understand the purpose of having to live this life any longer. I don't want to be helpful to anyone else - I don't want to overcome anything. Nothing in this life holds any interest for me whatsoever. And I don't want it to. I know life is terminal no matter how it is lived. And I long to be done with it.