I Wish I Could Sleep Forever

its been a while since I have written here. This is a helpful group to write to. I feel as though I am struggling in life with my depression and anxiet. It has effected me more and more recently. I don't understand... Things were getting better. My psychiatrist wants me in an IOP again, but I have to work. added, I live where I work, so giving up this job would be giving up on my home. Now that I am becoming more depressed I can feel the urge to sleep again. I suppose the seroquel and trazodone I take helps, but I also have been drinking more! I always drank a lot, but I has also gotten worse. I want to do what I did years ago and just stay home with my mom and sleep, take pills and go to therapy. But, that too, is not the life I want to lead. I have friends and I want to keep them, not drive them away with crazines. One  of my best friends is also bipolar II, she really understands when I am going through something. 
 
I dont one think my family understands the true struggle behind depression anymor, because they have not seen it affect me is so many years. I am with Kaiser now for insurance which is a good and bad thing. It seems as though