i will be happy again

i like that thought.
im letting go of him.
i took him off my car ins.
i got my own cell phone acct
this stuff is easy.  the emotional stuff is hard
but gotta start somewhere.
ive looked into divorce.
i want alimony, but i wonder if its worth it.  ill have 2 pay more.
i want what im due. not sure what that is. seems wrong 2 walk away empty handed.
but if this causes a major snag; im not willing 2 hold it up.  id rather b free even w/o alimony.
4 a marriage that lasted less that 10 yrs im not sure ill get much.
i guess im hoping that the money will soothe some of the pain he caused.
is that unrealistic?
the thoughts crossed my mind to sue the woman he's bn cheating with 2.
but i think that wldnt give me what i want.  i want her 2 b held accountable. i might just file the papers to shame her and rattle her and then withdraw...idk
and then again i may unearth some more painful truths that i don't know anything about.
when u open a can of worms u just dont know whats gonna come slithering out.