I went out!!!

Okay, so yeah, I need a new circle of friends!  And yeah, I had no one to go with and no plan of where to go!!!  But, I went anyway.  I promised myself, after all.  I've promised so many people in the past so much and it was for nothing...so I was not going to break a promise to myself!!!  I had fun.  I went out.  Yeah, it was a bit lonely by muyself.  And no, I didn't meet a guy (at all) and not THE guy or a GREAT guy..but I danced a couple of songs, enojyed my time away from kids and pups...it was good.
That being said, yes...I cried before I left.  Because, I'm alone and it was a bit lonely to step out alone.  And yeah, I cried because I felt a little damned lame...
Then I got over it.  Reminded myself that I had promised myself!!!  NO, the world didn't move, nothing wonderous happened!!  But you know, I had some time to myself, adult time, away from all the stress.  I danced a couple songs, talked with a couple of guys (people) and it was good.  I'm good. 
I will wake up in the morning the same gal that needs to study for an Arabic testy Monday and do laundry that I was before I went....and I can't tell you exactly how miraculous that actually is...it is just...miraculous!!! 
I am proud, to be me, to go out and be me and to come home, go to bed, and wake up me!!!