I want to try it.

I have not written because of the time requirements that I am put on as my mom is sick. I am so depressed and lonely. Spent my birthday with myself and my family. I want to tr suicide. It's in my mindset right now and I can't seem to get it out. Everything including myself is so dark and hurtful. I don't wan to know what is going to happy in future or if anyone is going to care about me gone. I'll just leave the ones that I loved and cared about, I am sure that man didn't know they were loved. I need to let go, I need to give it a chance. Death can't be worse then what I am going through. I gotta go I can't do this anymore.