I want to be saved from this bubble :(

I have to be in control of every single part of me. The grip is so tight....it hurts...........I really desperately desire to let go, and I'm trying to...but it's so hard. I'm stuck in this bubble of mine....I want to feel....I want to feel so badly. I want to love, be loved, and I want to be a true friend....more open with my family......but I'm stuck in this bubble.........I'm stuck and I CAN't GET OUT! I'm stuck and it scares me.......because  I can't get out....I can't go to anyone.....but in this bubble, who would ever want to come to me? Maybe with help I could be freed from the bubble....like Rapunzel was freed from her bubble (that tower with no way in)....I wonder would anyone ever come to rescue me too? I'm not a beautiful, fair, innocent, pure, fairy tail princess like Rapunzel was..........so what do I do? I live in the real world, where even the most beautiful and deserving of hearts don't always find love.....so what about my scarred up, desperate heart? What do I do? Do I give up or what ? What about me? I want to be saved from this bubble :(