I\'ve had enough of stupid people..!

So this is what's happening.   My pd went away for 2 weeks (so I was told by someone) and left me with a presciption of Lamictal that ran out, and a presciption of Seroquel that ran out, the Seroquel he probably didn't realize would run out because I am upping the dose every other night if I am not sleeping, but all in all I had to run to my family doc to renew these 2 prescriptions.  My family doc doesn't like to get involved with prescriptions from my pd (very wise man because he shouldn't fool around  with areas he is not specialized in) but he gave me enough to last me 7 days until my pd came back. So now this is what's happening.   This morning I called my pd to get prescriptions in order (I have enough for 2 days) and guess what?  He is not here until the 16th...!!!  WHAT!!!!!!!!!The nurse that answered the phone already annoys me becuase she just doesn't have any compassion, geez, she  should be working in a logging camp not a pd's office...ggrrr!  So when she told me this I could feel my tempature rising to boil.  The rest of the conversation is a blur to me, and I ended up telling her that I will just go without my meds till my pd gets back and any problems I will go to emerg.  She seemed quite happy about this decision and on that note she was able to discontinue the conversation, which was a good move cause I could have killed her...aaahhh! So now I had a big melt down, got totally frustrated, let rage creep into this situation and I am thinking, okay, now I have to go back to my family doc, and ask him to write 2 new prescriptions (ones that he would rather not renew) and I just hate that thought.  So for the first time in a long time I have been thinking that I should just lay off on these 2 meds and see what happens?  I  am not keen on going back to my family doc again. What I would like to do is  grab that unfeeling nurse who works  in my pd's office and take her to a rubber room and inject her with  "bipolar fluid" for she can understand how we feel...gggrrr! This is my perfect opportunity to stop my meds, I am so mad that I could scream...aaahh!  From where I sit it is darkI never intended to blow out my sparkIt's out of my graspFor now it is goneI always feel so hopless and weakTill my spark comes back on Darker and darkerThe thoughts in my mindLogic screams at meNot to leave life behindBut I can't see where I'm goingThe road ahead is so darkMy vision is blurred and the signs are all marked Which way do I goMy thoughts are running wildI pray that I make itJust one more mile Wait, there they areAll those people who sayI love you, and then walk awayThe reason I slipped is because of their wordsNow I am doomed once againTo this hell upon earth!