I've got to be really careful
I've got to be really careful and not let my mental meanderings turn into some kind of instability.
I know I need a focus when I am not at work and now that's exactly what I must do for myself.
Yes it's a little bit of craziness getting to that point. I don't know why I feel anxious about pursuing
the goals that i like. All I mostly think about is food or sex - and that is ok - in small part - but
I want to set other goals for myself. Going to a meetup group has been suggested to me -
and I really feel like I want to find one that is about an activity that I like and not just a mixer.
So there's something framing the whole event. I've kind of stepped away from my strength today
and now I have to find myself outside of work when I don't have something telling me who I am or what I should
be doing - but writing this is helping me retake that.
Peace, m
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I think I may be really selfish. My Aunt talked to me about her need to be needed the other day.
That is what motivates her to be a part of something.
When I am at work, I feel like I am a part of a really great team at work. I like that..
Rather than beat myself up - I think having some personal goals is ok. It has to be.
We all navigate and negotiate between the individual time and the group time.
It's hard. I think my goal in my free time will just be to save money. I think maybe I should push
myself to travel. Saving money in the meantime. I feel like this journal is becoming my significant other - or my Therapist. :)
Good thinking Marky...... Maybe if you meet a good person or people at MeetUp you could think about taking a trip once you get to know each other for a while..... Big squishy hug.....xo
thanks Jan!!