I've been thinking about some things I know I Shouldn't.

Lately, I've been thinking about the whole purging thing.  I know I've done really well and all with making it to my 30 day mark, but lately.. I've been thinking about doing it again.  Not like everyday, but just once.  It's like I think, maybe if I do it again, it will remind me how awful it was and help me to not do it.  It's been so long I'm starting to loose focus of why I stopped.  It's crazy.  I know that even one more time, could kill me.. yet.. I've still been thinking about it.  I've been thinking about it a lot.  I just don't know what to do.