I've been getting worse.....

I've been getting worse..... my PTSD is really starting to act up and my anger has been getting a lot worse..... the smallest things r starting to set me off and I just want to cry.... or kill myself to make this pain I'm feeling stop..... I managed to talk things out with my friend and we both apologized and so I feel a bit better but for some reason I'm still starting to get worse..... idk why..... I need help..... I'm falling into darkness..... :'( someone pull me out..... :'(