I survived

Well Vic, I cannot believe it is 2015. I tried to stay awake til midnight. I went to bed at 11:28 (I remember looking at the clock) and I thought to myself I'll just take a little nap & wake up before midnight so I can have a glass of champagne & toast to my Vic... well you were not here to wake me up like you always did, so of course me who could probably sleep through an earthquake did not wake up til 2 am. You know, I found New Years Eve to be more painful without you than Christmas, so I'm kind of glad I slept through it. You would always have the goofy hats & noise makers ready for us. I need you so much! Every day I talk to you out loud & silently too.  It is almost 7 mos.... & I still feel brokenhearted & not sure when I will start crying from missing you.  I just want you to hold me.... even scold me lol. I just want you back! I still have dreams of you & I treasue them so much... they seem so real... I can see your face and feel you. Thank you.... you can visit me anytime. hint hint, but you really should think about giving me some lucky lottery numbers.... I'm sick & tired of working. If I won the big lottery it would definitely be "Take this job & shove it" hee hee. Anyway, my love, I want you to know that I love & miss you to the very being of my existence.
Te amo mucho mi amor,
Your Wifey
Nydia