I suprise myself

After a another round of difficult conversation it hit me hard about how much I've failed her, failure is something I haven't really experienced professionally or personally.  It was like this new wave of horrible raw emotion punched me right in the heart, it hurt bad.  To be thought of as a failure by someone is tough, of course she didn't call me a failure directly but that's what I feel like I am for how I've fractured our love and family.  It's really really tough.