I should quit friends

Why do I even bother trying to make new friends still? They just hurt me in the end. I just went through this pain months ago and now I'm going through it again. Me thinking a friend hates me. They might be busy working or something might be stressing them out to the point where they dont wanna talk to anyone else. But, when I think that it usually turns into them saying they dont wanna talk to me anymore.
Why call me your friend and talk to me and everything, when you don't really care They dont seem to care anyway. I might be jumping to conclusions, but its very rare for a person to just be "busy". All u gotta do is say "i have alot going on right now and just wanna disappear for a while", something, anything is good.
A part of me loves to be social with very few people. I love hanging out and just talking to my friends. Until I realize that they don't really care about me no mater how long I've known them. There's really no pattern to how long a person has known me or anything. Anybody will eventually toss me to the side, just because.
It's been happening my whole life and I'm just really sick of it. Can't wait to move and just do art and be with my bf most of the time. I feel like my bf is my main best friend I have. Idk if that's a good or sad thing.
People don't really care about me or my problems. I'm gonna try to not make new friends anymore. Internet friends are fine, they dont give me much of a problem It's friends in real life is what I'm talkin about.