I should hate you

I really should. You took my love, my dreams, my hopes, my happiness, everything you meant to me, wadded it up and threw it in my face. I should despise you. I really should. God only knows why I still love you....

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One day I will stop thinking of you constantly. I'll be able to listen to song lyrics again, eat at our favorite restaurant again, enjoy sitting on the beach in the morning again. I'll be able to sit and watch tv without missing you next to me. I won't sit on the floor one morning holding an almost empty ketchup bottle, crying over all the times you teased me because I hated ketchup. I'll open the dishwasher and not be surprised that it's full of clean dishes, because you always emptied it. I'll be able to enjoy Christmas again. Be able to visit favorite places of mine that I introduced you to and not relive all the memories. I'll be able to go to Dunkin Donuts. Take a shower without missing your touch. Maybe one day I'll even be brave enough to love again, to give my heart again. One day. Not today