I Screwed Up..... :'(
I screwed up..... I texted my best friend and i told her how it wasn't a good idea for her to be dating her bf because she was cutting cuz she was hurt that he wasn't talking to her and well..... it turns out his cell was screwed up or something and so he couldn't talk to her and he messaged me on facebook threatening me and all that so now i'm just gonna stop talking 2 her cuz i'm useless and i'm a horrible friend.... all i can think about right now is killing myself so her life will be better..... if i died..... she would be so much happier, i know it..... i'm sitting here right now covered in tears..... i hate myself..... im a horrible friend..... i'm a useless piece of shit..... i ruin everything and i shouldn't even exist..... my existence is a mistake..... i wish i could just disappear right now..... it would make everyone so much happier and make her feel so much better..... all i can think of is the words "I'm sorry....." I ruined her life.... i know it..... i feel so horrible..... and well..... what can i do? i already screwed everything up..... well..... idk..... i guess i'll just disappear from her life..... it'll make her happier..... and me? Who cares about me? I'm nothing and I always will be nothing..... :'(
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You are NOT useless! I wish I had friends that looked out for my well being. Too often we keep things to ourselves because we don\'t want things to get \"messy\". I think u are brave to speak up and voice your opinion. You did not ruin her life. She would be devastated to lose you over a boy she\'ll probably not even be with years from now. All you can do is offer an apology and tell her you had the best of intentions. I know it feels like the end of the world right now. I promise you it will pass. Sometimes being a good person feels like shit.
oh hunny. i dont want you too disapear. i love you as a friend. i know you were trying to help. but saying he was abusing me hit a nerve. you know ive been abused in the past, and saying that was what he was doing made me feel like you were chalking him up with them. its not his nor anyone elses fault that i still cut. its a problem with me. i dont want you to go anywhere Brandon, but im with Kris and i love him. i would NOT be happy if you were dead, but we only seem to cause each other pain all the time. i want you in my life kk> i swear to God that i do. you hit a nerve with me, and i got mad. please dont blame yourself. and the facebook thing was just because he is tired of shit from ppl. alot of stuff has been going on. and i hate to tell ya, but you make me cut too. and kat1977 is right. i would be devastated to loose you. you will always be in my heart
im sorry i make u cut.... i just wanted to help.... i tried to do what i thought was right.... im sorry..... :\'(