I really hate being so lonely

 Since I have been unemployed, I have been home alone, all day, every day. I am trying to keep busy doing projects but I am going batty. I find myself going out, shopping, just to get out, to see other people.  I have been contacting some organizations to do some volunteer work. And, I know that will help me. But for now, I am going crazy. I hate this.  I was thinking if my honey should just walk in right now, what would I say?  I thought I would be so happy to see him, I would cry. I would ask him how is he, where has he been, why did he leave me, what did he do, what can he tell me, hold me, hold me tight, never let me go, I missed you so much, I love you so much, it has been so horrible for me since you left. I miss you, your kids have been horrible to me, you left me in such a mess, why did you leave, plesase listen to me from now on, the cats are here, I had to take them back, but I will get rid of them, if you will stay, look at what I did in the house, do you like it, I miss you. Please hold me, never let me go, never let me go. Just hold me. Just hold me. Let me feel your face, let me kiss your face. Let me see your eyes, hear your voice, smell you, I miss you, hold me. Just hold me. Just hold me. Never let me go.